MRI (Machine Relishes Intimidation)

The MRI which I refer as Machine Relishes Intimidation scares me, the brain and neck scanning machine is scarier than all the horror movies I've ever watched. First, they insert me into a coffin like space, mind you; it feels really confine and narrow. In addition, they told not to swallow during the scanning as the motion will make the picture blurry heighten my nerves even more.  

When they slowly push me into the machine, even closing my eyes couldn't help my nerves. With the high frequency noises like an alien aircraft will use to emit their enemies, I feel like I was going through an alien abduction. Hence, I tried a few different ways to distract myself from the sounds, I tried the Vipassana breathing techniques, doesn't work, I tried to send my kind thoughts to my family and friends, hoping they won’t have to undergo what I've gone through, doesn't work either, makes me feel like I’m suffering even more. 

I feel suffocated and nearly wanted to give up and cry but then I think of the little children and the elderly that has to go through this, I keep thinking how much they must have suffered, I told myself, let me suffer for them. That helps to alleviate a little but then it goes back to my fear, I just keep pressing on, Thankfully, the scanning halt half way, injecting the solvent into my blood, that’s where I take a little break before going into the narrow confine white space and face my fear again, this time round, the scanning is shorter and I am glad I survive through my fears.

After the MRI, I saw the next patient is an old fragile man, I can’t help but empathize what he has to go through. I send my kind thoughts out to him and may all sentient beings stay well and happy.

Did I also mention the scanning takes 45 minutes?

Side notes: By not means, I want to scare anyone going through MRI, I merely want to share this experience so you can prepare yourself without going through panic attack.